Monday, February 21, 2011

Hey everybody. :)

It's a glorious day here...the sky is a pale spring blue with big puffy clouds. The trees are rustling gently with a warm breeze. Ahh...I love this weather. It's been so nice to be able to open up all the windows and let the breeze flow through the house. I am definitely ready to bid winter goodbye!

We've had little bits and pieces of progress in the past couple of weeks. Two weeks ago, we both went through night classes to become CPR (adult, infant, child) and First Aid certified. It came in the midst of an insanely busy week, but we are thankful that it all worked out so we could both go.

On February 11, I had my doctor's appointment to follow up on my test results. The appointment was very short; we learned that as far as the GYN (Ms Delk) can see, I should not have any problems getting pregnant. But, Ms Delk referred me to another GYN to do further testing just to be sure. We do think we have some answers with regards to our infertility, but are keeping this information private.

This past week I received my referral to see the new GYN. However, it turns out the doctor is actually from Mobile, AL and only comes to our area twice a month, and he was booked out until May! So, I am going to be calling today about making an appointment with a different doctor and hopefully I can get in before too long.

Also this past week, I finally got our family profile sent off to Nightlight. :D While most of our profile has been done for several weeks, I've been waiting to work on our letter to the genetic parents with Caleb, whose schedule has been very busy. After getting the letter done, I had lots of issues with converting the file to a PDF, so it ended up being a much longer process than I expected. But, it's with Nightlight now, which is very exciting.

So, where does that put us? Well, we are sort of in limbo mode right now. We are still waiting on child abuse/neglect clearances from AL and TN to finalize our home study. We also need a letter from a doctor saying I can carry a baby, which I'm hoping to acquire when I go to my appointment with the new GYN. After those two things are finalized, we will move into the matching phase!! It is sooo exciting to me to realize how close we are to matching, especially as our agency has a very short timeframe for matching (1-4 months). :D

Other than adoption bits and pieces, not a whole lot has been happening around here, just the usual flight school crazy schedule for Caleb, piles of homework for him, me being a housewife, babysitting, and fulfilling our church commitments. :) God is definitely at work here, and we are so excited to see what He will do in the coming days.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

God is faithful

I've been sitting here listening to worship music and I'm so humbled...humbled to realize (again!) that this life is not all about me; it's not even mostly about me. It's NOT about me. Similarly, this adoption is not about me or Caleb or us beginning a family; this adoption is solely about God bringing glory to His name by using two willing vessels. And, it will happen in His time and in His way - of that I am confident.

This has been a very busy week for us, yet one abundantly filled with reminders of God's goodness and sustaining grace. A close friend came home from a missions trip aglow with all God did in the Dominican Republic. Caleb's schedule worked out so he could take me to a dentist appointment. Caleb has been able to attend the CPR training with me for the two nights it ran, even though by his schedule he wouldn't have been able to. Our music for a wedding is coming together. The little girl I babysit has been sleeping soo much better (1hr+ at a time!). I had a great time teaching the 2-3 year olds tonight at church. As a friend reminded me tonight, these are not mere coincidences...they are God at work, showing Himself to be faithful and true, as He promised. With all of these things in my heart, I am so filled with gratitude to serve such an awesome God who loves so deeply and cares so much about the intimate details of my life.

I am learning so much in this season...I read a book (required for our adoption) that finally gave me answers about things from my past and how I can deal with them. Isn't it amazing how God takes something unexpected and uses it just where you need it at a specific time? While I am definitely not where I want to be in the healing and emotional recovery process, I know this: my God is greater than any past events and He can tackle even the most obscure of enemies. I love these words from the Psalms: "Who is this King of glory? The LORD strong and mighty, the LORD mighty in battle." (Ps 24: 8) I am also claiming these words: "Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the LORD thy God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee." (Deut 31:6) God will be faithful to bring healing and whatever else is necessary.

Hope you all have a wonderful rest of the week!